I'm starting to feel like God has a lot of lead roles in store for me.

Hey everyone. Glad to be back on here after quite a while. Just wanted to reflect on my first week in Galveston. So for all of you who don't know I am on a new contract in Texas with Texas Family Musicals. I have been here for about a week now and it is going very well! I'm so happy to be experiencing something new and am honored to be playing a Lead Role. I'm starting to feel like God has a lot of lead roles in store for me. I was only expecting to be in an ensemble role this summer, but God wanted me to open my mind to the plan he has in store for me and stop following my own plan. If it was up to me I would only be in ensemble roles and wouldn't have experienced my principle role at Busch Gardens last summer either. So, I'm slowly learning to open myself up to anything. God has a lot in store for me and all I need to do is reach out and openly accept it.

My insecurities tried to get the best of me last week in rehearsals. I kept questioning myself and saying, 'does this song sound right," "did I say these lines correctly?" "what do people think of my singing." I absolutely NEED to get that out of my head because it is holding me back. When your singing and thinking about if the song is going well or not, 9 times out of 10 the song will not go well because you are thinking about it. I've learned in the past that I am really the only person holding myself back from so many things. I'm going to need some help remembering to not care what other people think of me and just go for it. Good thing about that is, with God's help anything is possible. I will remember all this going forward and I will NOT let my insecurities get the best of me. I will declare that I am good enough, I am a performer, not just a dancer, and I was sent here for a reason. Nothing worth having is easy so there will be some challenges, but the challenges are just to make me better.

This week was also a little tough because my grandfather passed away on Thursday. I was very close to my grandfather and it hit me really hard. My grandfather had stage 4 colon cancer and before I left for Texas we knew he didn't have a lot of time left. We were thinking a few months or a few weeks. I wasn't thinking that he would pass the next week but, I have to say, I'm glad he is in a much better place and that he is looking down on me with my grandmother. My grandmother would probably be so mad at me if she knew I was still letting my insecurities get the best of me. She sent me a message from a prophet a few months ago that legit said "Stop being a pussy." She was telling me to stop being afraid and go for it! I'm happy that I remembered that message as I am typing this so I can remember to take that into rehearsal this week.

Anyway, things got a little rough last week but I declare that this week will be better. Philippians 4:13 says "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." And I'm going to believe that this week. If you have any more scriptures or words of wisdom you feel will help, feel free to drop them below. Thanks for reading :)